Why?

Why can't you talk to me? Why does it just stop? You said you still cared about me. You said you still loved me. Why does that just stop? I don't understand. God please. You know I love you. You know I would do anything for you. You know how much I was trying to make you happy. I was doing everything I could to spend time with you. God I love you. I don't know why you can't see that, but I wish you would. 

Completely Confused

I don't know how you can think I don't care about you or I'm "not into you". That's just insane. I hang on every word and every text from you. I wait. I wait for the next time to see you. It is the longest, worst wait I could ever have. Why you think I don't enjoy spending time with you is beyond me. Why you think I don't want to do everything for you I don't understand. I'm there for you whenever you need me. I try so hard for you. I wish you would see that. I wish you would see what being with you, doing things with you, sharing my life with you, means to me. I wish you knew how good I feel when I can get you something you want and how bad I feel when I can't. The last month was incredible. I couldn't believe I was so close to you again. You made me believe again. You made me think I was good enough to be with you again. Like your quote you sent me "just because I don't text you, doesn't mean I don't want to talk to you". That's the truth. I was waiting for you. Waiting for you to miss me because I miss you so much. All the things we did, the places we went, the fun times we had, do you think I didn't want that? It's all I wanted. I was happy spending whatever time I could with you. When you told me to go, I went. When you asked me to stay, I stayed. When I was gone, you missed me so much and I missed you too. The truth is out. Everyone knows. And I don't care what they think. All that matters is how we feel about each other. And for me, you are my world. There is only one place I want to be and only one person I want to fight for and give my all for, and that is you. But you should know that, because I told you the truth, and if not, I'm completely confused. 

To The One I Love

I hope you find your happiness. 

Goodbye. 

Gone

Things like this...leave me speechless and heartbroken. They kept me going. They kept me full of hope and happiness. You wanted me there. You wanted to hear from me. You missed me. You loved me.  

And now they are gone...again. 

I Miss This

This...made me happy. 

Lost

Show emotion?

Be open?

Be honest?

Care?

Or...

Don't care. 

Keep everything inside. 

Act like nothing matters. 

Lie. 

I just want to be with you.